Reasons..
.. Why I'm not pursuing medicine despite my course being Biology.
Medicine is a calling. I am not as self-less as I thought, and my confidence level barely reaches average.
I am afraid of losing my patients, of failing the expectations of the family members in case of a dying loved one. The trauma can severely affect me as much as it would for the family.
I am prone to depression myself, how could I possibly treat others if I could not take care of my mental being?
etc. etc.
Maybe some could say I am good enough to push through, but at the back of my mind, I know what I cannot do. But knowing myself, maybe it is but a lazy excuse to not enter the war zone such as med school.
To tell you the truth, I know very little about the world of medicine. I barely know what the process of becoming a doctor really is.
So, I am backing out on my plans of becoming a doctor. Although maybe at later on, at some point in life, I would think of myself as a neurosurgeon for the sake of picturing the"what ifs"in life.
What I will be doing is entering school for the nth time to study Marine Science, and major in Marine Biology. I have more enthusiasm for that, and hopefully I could get my family to be alright with me pursuing a master's degree than going straight to work.
Medicine is a calling. I am not as self-less as I thought, and my confidence level barely reaches average.
I am afraid of losing my patients, of failing the expectations of the family members in case of a dying loved one. The trauma can severely affect me as much as it would for the family.
I am prone to depression myself, how could I possibly treat others if I could not take care of my mental being?
etc. etc.
Maybe some could say I am good enough to push through, but at the back of my mind, I know what I cannot do. But knowing myself, maybe it is but a lazy excuse to not enter the war zone such as med school.
To tell you the truth, I know very little about the world of medicine. I barely know what the process of becoming a doctor really is.
So, I am backing out on my plans of becoming a doctor. Although maybe at later on, at some point in life, I would think of myself as a neurosurgeon for the sake of picturing the"what ifs"in life.
What I will be doing is entering school for the nth time to study Marine Science, and major in Marine Biology. I have more enthusiasm for that, and hopefully I could get my family to be alright with me pursuing a master's degree than going straight to work.
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